Emergence-Revised

Every once in a while I have the great fortune of coming across exactly the right book at the right time. Just when I feel lost in the middle of a great wood (as Dante would put it), like Virgil, the guide appears to lead me through the thicket. This time around, that guide is Barbara Marx Hubbard and the book is Emergence: The Shift from Ego to Essence.

The thicket through which she is guiding me?

In the last few months, you may have noticed, I’ve put a tremendous amount of work and attention into my practice as an intuitive consultant. I’ve created a website, worked on mission statements, value statements and vision statements: started a newsletter and took courses to advance my understanding of marketing and my relationship to money.

All while continuing to work with clients locally and across the country, and leading a circle of spiritual seekers in Tacoma. The momentum has felt fabulous and the growth gratifying. For perhaps the first time in my life, I have felt as if I was living my life “on purpose.” And yet, when it came to the next step…I’d been drawing a blank. Despite a notebook full of good ideas, this year it’s seemed as if every effort I made to further expand was blocked by forces beyond my control.

So where does Hubbard come in? Emergence is a challenge to “Put This Purpose First”, this purpose being the shift from living life out of the frightened, needy ego’s demands and fears towards a life guided by one’s own inner knowing and universal wisdom.

In other words, the guidance is to stop doing and start listening. In other other words: MEDITATE MORE, BE BUSY LESS.

Hubbard, herself, writes that to take such a step (especially in the midst of great ideas and great momentum) may require a person to have more faith than ever before. But without such a step – without a firm commitment to universal wisdom as the purpose above all others – even our most noble efforts are destined to be fulfilled in the old familiar space of anxiety, compulsion and desperation.

I had an entire previous career characterized by anxiety, compulsion and desperation. I know how to do that. I know how to fret over a notebook full of good ideas and worry that I’m not working hard enough.

What I don’t know how to do is let a space of peace and wisdom guide my choices not just a few minutes a day, or only during my quiet times, but always and forever – as a critical step towards my own conscious evolution and the evolution of consciousness on this planet.

I don’t know how to do it. But I want to.